One death wish, is one to many for any man, but now he wants to be an MP.
Derek Stillie is the Prospective Parliamentary Candidate for Central Ayrshire – and if elected will have to prepare for a volley of abuse, if he manages to swing 1,300 votes from the SNP.
The 45-year-old goalkeeper – who has played for Dundee United, Dunfermline and Aberdeen amongst others.
He said: “I come from Cumnock and we had the miners’ strike growing up so there was always an element of politics around the household and community.
“Historically, Cumnock was a staunch Labour stronghold and I attended rallies at the time with speakers that included Arthur Scargill.
“My grandfathers were miners, mum was an admin assistant in social work and dad was a brickie and post office worker. They both knew periods of unemployment.
“I spent a lot of my adult life voting Labour. I left Scotland in 2007 but was aghast when I returned eight years later at how much the country had changed under the SNP administration.
“We’ve become obsessed with this constitutional question to the detriment of education and health, in particular.
“We need to return to priorities and that’s why I joined the Conservatives. Look, I know the legacy of Thatcher isn’t popular in the area, but that was 40 years ago. We’re a different animal across Scotland and the UK these days.”
When asked about the 6-1 defeat to Rangers. He added: “To some extent we walked off at the end thinking, ‘I hope Celtic have beaten Kilmarnock more than they’ve beaten us so it’s not on our doorstep’.
“We were devastated, embarrassed at losing 6-1. Rangers won the league. Who cared? It had nothing to do with us.
“I didn’t believe there was any way Chris Sutton could have said we lay down to Rangers, but he did.
“You could understand it to some extent, coming off at Rugby Park having lost the league by a goal and full of adrenaline. Credit him for later admitting he was out of order.
“I’ve watched it back and I wouldn’t say I was at fault for any of the goals and I made a few decent saves after Jason Dair pulled it back to 1-1.
“Actually, I had the biggest fall out I ever experienced after a football game that day, with Jimmy Nicholl.
“Gus MacPherson kneed the ball back to me during the game and I picked the ball up in my box.
“Afterwards, Jimmy Nic asked why I picked it up instead of just booting it up the park and relieving the pressure, but it should not have been a free kick. Let’s just say the discussion between us was quite forceful.”
He added: “It was a genius death threat – his address was at the top of the page. I read it and put it in the bin and then thought again. I retrieved it, showed it to the manager, and took it to the police.
“Actually, it was more of a death wish and how horrible a death he believed I should succumb to, hopefully sometime soon.
“Listen, we maybe didn’t anticipate going to Ibrox that day and winning 3-0, but we expected a positive result to take us into the close season.”